Friday, March 20, 2020

COVID19 & Life Alone

I’m so surprised at how quickly the COVID19 virus is spreading.  Just a week ago we had 600 cases.  Yesterday we have 6000 and now over 10k in the US.  I think the thing that surprises me the most is that there are now no public Masses in the state of Ohio.  I mean, I’m Catholic & middle aged.  I’ve NEVER been told that my obligation to attend Mass has been eliminated! I used to hem and haw about getting up and dressed.  There were so many choices on when and where to go.  No there is no where.  I pray I learn this lesson quickly and never take Mass for granted again.  The pictures are of my brother and his family and I visiting via social distancing lol.  I miss seeing them.  I know I annoy them so I do try to not call, visit or text even though I’m sure they don’t believe the later lol.  But it’s been particularly challenging now.  Work is stressful and I come home late and alone.  I can’t go out to eat or to the movie and have even casual conversation with strangers.  Worse, I can’t shop!   I confess, I did do big shopping tonight at Meijer. I have more than enough food for myself as well as my brother’s family for at least a month.  I may run out of fresh things but I felt the need to stock up.  I’m worried I’m going to get sick.  I’m busy but not active.  I’m worried in the sense that I don’t have a reason to live other than for living’s sake if I became ill and I know I’m not spiritually in a place that would allow me to be with God.  When I was in a fire a few years ago my brother and his family took me to their house for the night from the hospital and I felt so at peace with people who cared about me.  So much that I didn’t mind there was no bed those normal comforts you think you need.  Sigh, we’ll see.  I better go inside and put these groceries away and let the poor dog out.